finallyyy

laptopfull na ulit ako. di na laptopless.

so.. so.. so.. my net life is back. okay tama na ang emo and nosebleed posts. haha. okay so finally naayos na ang laptop ko. thanks to XP, JC's friend :) galing galing! kahit dinugo sya sa pag ayos nito eh, worth it naman. oh diba? i'm back to my blog life :) yipeee!

i saw him.. again. nagkita kami sa shop nila last tuesday na parang wala lang. kahit smile or hello wala. tae. nanigas na naman ako. ex is ex. i know right? i missed him. big time! i know he doesn't want to talk to me anymore and what can i do? maybe i should really forget about him. SOON!

moving on......

my parents and i watched Caregiver last night. i was touched. i cried a little and asked myself: how does it really feel to be taken for granted by the people you love? wow. pasok na pasok. aray sapul tagos. i miss my old life. when everything was perfect. i miss the old times. and i miss you. but i don't care anymore. as you wish...... i know.

okay, so goodbye EX

...

emotions are taking over me AGAIN. huhuhu. NOT. so im finding ways on how to fight this feeling/s i have for you, my precious boy. and really its hard. sometimes i just wanna cry it all out but i guess right now you're still not worth it all. "give it a try"- words i want to hear from you but no! its just too complicated eh? and if ever i do talk to you or text you it still would be my fault so why give my effort to you? hahaha! oh yes. this is making me laugh. im starting to realize things, things i never really thought about :)) and even im startign to realize things i know i'd still have this hidden thing for you. well its no longer hidden to everyone else but you and yes its true that i get nervous around you. but that'll all have to change soon :(

...i cant help myself

maybe

im depressed.

because i got my self into some deep shit to the point that i cant handle it any longer. its sad. and yes im not giving up! ive been through worse and this is nothing. agree? of course you agree :) i hate the fact that love can actually break friendships and friends can break friends. it sounds stupid but it makes sense. seriously. i guess don't get too attached to your friends? hahaha. life really is unpredictable.

none can bring me down.

confused.
-hoping and wishing for some better shit to come :)

"how bout playing with fire?"

now i miss someone, someone i know i cant be with anymore. rawr. why like this. i miss you :) i just wanna hold you close to me.
just like before but i guess its too late?

***i love you BY.

lost without you

i am organizing my blog as i feel it is already beginning to be really messy. i remembered my previous blog. my writing before was based more on how i feel whole-heartedly without having a knack on the side of the mind and its actually basic. there are, indeed, a lot of everyday blabs to think that i've been wanting to make this a fruitful blog. plus, writing an everyday blab makes me feel i've not been doing this in a long time. well, it could be thought of that little thought, obviously pertaining to everyday blabs, is of importance to the infinitive motion of man.

**truth is the only key so they can tell me i was wrong all along even if i'm not lying

to YOU:

so how does it really feel? will i be able to get along with the people there? will i still love you when that time comes? okay that was some random shit right there. funny. i've been thinking a lot and i couldnt help but ask myself the what if's and what's i had with you. very interesting huh? YES. very. haha. seriously i thought i'd get over you after a year but no! its still eff'n here. make it end please. it did end, but why do i feel that sometimes you feel the same way as i do. i know you do? maybe a little. even just a little? sigh. okay this is crazy but i just have to let it out. i hate you! i wanna have something new with someone but i just cant, you're just too perfect to be replaced by someone else. and even if i did/do replace you i know it still wouldnt be "good enough" for me. its me who's fuck'n suffering, not you! rawr. miss me? teasing. actually whatever happens as long as i know were "okay", then im fine with whatever. (maybe) but we're NOT. that's the saddest part.

oh fuck boys.

sweetness

HAPPY MOM'S DAY!! ♥

&& Happy Birthday Jen, my dearest sluttt :D

i shall leave.
SLEEP MODE.

i luuurve tentacles :D

CRAVING.

i love Jen's tentacles. HAHA. well, which brought us to a little fight. but what else can i do? i love her kasi eh. grrrr! haha. i want tentacles now! tsk i promised myself i would buy a bunch of that. WALANG HINGIAN!! :p it's her birthday tomw so sige na nga patawarin ang bru.

my friends are in Red Box and sheez i'm at home. i want to sing! sing my emotions and all that.

dinner at Chocolate Kiss later :) miss the place.


*i'm not making any sense in this. i'll be coming back laterrr. need a rest so badly -_-

...still want my passion back

sabog-inity

still floating.

+ Mr. Amparo rocks! but the case study sucks. hihi

+ "impyerno ba dito?" haha. Piging with Nubers and Shibbys :)

+ Monica, Kate & Jen at my place. had sooooooo much funnn!! pictorial ba ito sa tagaytay?! (evil laugh)

TIRED.

i'm backkk! bow.

hey feefs! i'm backkk! lately i've been acting so shallow ang sluggish so i decided to put some sensible stuff in my life.. and here i am! there's so many happenings in my life. i need to blog. i have to. spill of too much emotions in the past 6mos. well, everyone knows why.

my life's a rainbow under the darkest fire. makulay pero madilim. been through worse and i cant afford to fail again. i have had it. enough. i'm starting to have a new life AGAIN. i'm thinking of a new routine of my daily life. everyone has suggestions but i'm not comfortable with those. choosy kasi ako. i need to have a new life. NEEEED. my thoughts are always scattered. i WANT to grow as a lady and as a human. anyone who sells happiness? i'll buy a million.

okaaay. enough with this shit.

PS PS PS...

+ thank you sir Barayuga of making mura to me. na-inspire ako sa teacher na nagmumura. pwede na rin. natapos ko naman yung experiment. bleh!

+ first time in the history of Charm's life na nagVENTI na caramel macchiatto(spelling?)

+ i've been soooo laitera today :/

+ BUT!! but i've been a good good friend. may bawi naman diba? :)

+ friends' same havaianas next week. can't wait!

*** i miss you :)