lost without you

i am organizing my blog as i feel it is already beginning to be really messy. i remembered my previous blog. my writing before was based more on how i feel whole-heartedly without having a knack on the side of the mind and its actually basic. there are, indeed, a lot of everyday blabs to think that i've been wanting to make this a fruitful blog. plus, writing an everyday blab makes me feel i've not been doing this in a long time. well, it could be thought of that little thought, obviously pertaining to everyday blabs, is of importance to the infinitive motion of man.

**truth is the only key so they can tell me i was wrong all along even if i'm not lying

to YOU:

so how does it really feel? will i be able to get along with the people there? will i still love you when that time comes? okay that was some random shit right there. funny. i've been thinking a lot and i couldnt help but ask myself the what if's and what's i had with you. very interesting huh? YES. very. haha. seriously i thought i'd get over you after a year but no! its still eff'n here. make it end please. it did end, but why do i feel that sometimes you feel the same way as i do. i know you do? maybe a little. even just a little? sigh. okay this is crazy but i just have to let it out. i hate you! i wanna have something new with someone but i just cant, you're just too perfect to be replaced by someone else. and even if i did/do replace you i know it still wouldnt be "good enough" for me. its me who's fuck'n suffering, not you! rawr. miss me? teasing. actually whatever happens as long as i know were "okay", then im fine with whatever. (maybe) but we're NOT. that's the saddest part.

oh fuck boys.